I swear. This is no vanity post. It’s been a while since I have posted, I’m sorry… and believe me it’s not because I don’t have anything to say. I’ve tried to write about 6 different things over the past week and every time I got stuck. I graduated- finished my Master’s degree… I’m getting ready to start my life coaching certification… I have so much to post about- cards, readings, coaching… and I can’t get it out at all. I realized tonight that I haven’t really had a whole lot of fun lately and I have definitely been thinking too much about things and asking questions that I really don’t have any answers to. It hit me tonight that I haven’t sung in forever. Not really. I haven’t danced around. My melody has been…. missing. I haven’t been silly. Not really. I love music, love to sing and it almost always kicks me out of my ruts or helps me kick down walls… Heck, mostly it just helps me clear my mind so I can figure things out. I really, really need to incorporate singing more.
Back when COVID was in full swing I sang a lot and posted the covers on my YouTube channel. I am a crappy piano player so I sing a capella so it can sometimes be a little awkward. I don’t do it for likes and I don’t do it for attention but I love it and it makes me feel better. I used to perform a LOT. I was in a band for a while and of course I sang all throughout school. I sang to my kids, my lovers, my friends, my family. I sang about my pain, my happiness, my losses, my joys. I sang to God, for God, and about God. I danced as I sang- my dancing is something to behold hahah- and I found my own rhythm and melody and passed that along to my kids. Again- not for fame or attention but for joy. And I forgot that simple joy. So here I am in a rut- unable to post ANYTHING… and I realize that maybe I need to sing. I had to remember that doing something is better than doing nothing! This is intentional, this is taking action.
Below are a couple of videos I made tonight. I mostly ramble but I sing a couple of songs. Mostly, it just helped me unwind and laugh at myself. So, I hope you enjoy my silliness and that my silly attempt to bust down the blocks helps you knock down yours! Feel free to follow me on YouTube. I plan on doing more with the channel as far as coaching and readings go but for now it’s my singing outlet.
I hope you all have a good night! Tomorrow? Let’s talk about what you would do if….. But for now- just dance, find your melody, sing, find your place again.
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